Three Years

March 28th marks the third anniversary of the death of my friend Rick. I had written a poem commemorating this day and thought I'd post it here. Hard to believe three years have passed and I still miss him and still forget at times he is no longer here.

Three Years

It’s been three years
yet I haven’t been able
to delete your name and
number from my cell phone.

To do so would admit there
will be no more calls
no more shared jokes
no more songs sung over the lines.

It’s been three years
yet I haven’t been able
to delete your name
from my email account.

To do so would admit there
will be no more “hey you”
missives waiting, no more
letters exchanged over the lines.

It’s been three years
yet I haven’t been able
to delete you from my heart
or from my thoughts.

To do so would admit you
will no longer be there
when I need you as a friend
or to hold me as a lover.

It’s been three years
and I still think of you
when I hear a story I want
to tell you to make you laugh,

See something and think I should
share this with you and then
a fresh pain as I remember…
it’s been three years.